All right, so I was going to do a blog entry before this point, like when I graduated from college, but I wanted to wait until I got a job. Well, that hasn't happened yet, but I've done all I can do to get a job in Indiana, and this is my last day (for now) before I go back to New Hampshire.
Throughout the whole trip, I've been applying, copying, and preparing for interviews and getting nowhere. Even though there are more jobs I could apply for down here, it's still pretty limited. I also applied for certification in Indiana, so hopefully I'll get certified pretty quickly.
Even though I didn't get any interviews, I'm not too worried because I felt like I didn't have enough time to apply and do everything I needed to do before I went on those interviews. There were a lot of obstacles I had to tackle before I could mail/hand in applications to different schools (By the way, I owe Caleb and Joe SO much for driving me around for the last two weeks! Thank you both sooo much!).
So let's say I don't come out to Indiana, what will I do? Right now the plan is to go back to New Hampshire and substitute like crazy until I get enough money to get certified; get my foot in the door and network like crazy.
As far as Jake and I? We're at a really good place right now. He's bearing with me through all of this; being there on the hard days (yesterday) and the great days. He's really been there for me these two weeks. This has actually been the longest amount of time we've spent together and yes, we survived (astonishing, right? haha)!
If you've heard my story of how I chose St. Joe's as a college, you know that God was definitely involved. For those of you who don't, basically all my life I was going to go to Keene State College, but when I stepped onto the campus at St. Joe's, God basically told me that I was supposed to be there, and it was the best decision I've made to date.
Why this story? I had a similar experience this time, only the feeling was different. Sure, I've been to Indiana plenty of times, and I've stayed at Jake's house, but the mood wasn't one of a vacation/visit, it was more of a trial run of how life would be like here all the time (especially since Jake didn't take much time off...he's taking a half day today so we can go to the museum of art...the only vacation-y thing we're doing). I really feel like God is calling me here, and the schools that I applied at seem like really great schools to work in; the people, the system; everything.
So all in all, this was a wicked productive and good trip. It just seemed so easy to jump into a routine here.
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Senioritis Stress/End of My College Career
I'm a bit stressed out obviously (currently procrastinating, AGAIN, my English research paper, but I have an outline and my research is all done so all I have to do is write it now...), and I don't want to do anything right now.
So much is happening all at once, and I feel that I don't know how to stop it. Everything is due in a matter of a week and a day, and on top of that, I'm GRADUATING in a month. Isn't that nuts?
After I graduate, the question is what will I do when I get out into the real world? Where will I go? I mean, I'm literally almost done, and I don't have a job lined up, I don't know what I'm going to do for the summer, and I'm feeling real insecure about my future.
I just want to be free of all the stresses in my life...all of the worries, the insecurities, the moments where there is absolutely no hope anymore. There are nights where I don't get much sleep because of the constant worrying I do, and I really feel that it's becoming a huge problem, but I can't go and talk to somebody about it (professionally that is) because there's no time!
For some reason, I don't want tomorrow to come...not in a suicidal way, but in a way that I don't want to face reality. I don't want to do ANYTHING for a very long time.
Yes, this is a "woe is me" blog, but I don't want it to feel this way, I really don't...I don't like procrastinating and not getting things done and stressing out, and yet, I repeatedly do it nonstop!
What am I going to do?
So much is happening all at once, and I feel that I don't know how to stop it. Everything is due in a matter of a week and a day, and on top of that, I'm GRADUATING in a month. Isn't that nuts?
After I graduate, the question is what will I do when I get out into the real world? Where will I go? I mean, I'm literally almost done, and I don't have a job lined up, I don't know what I'm going to do for the summer, and I'm feeling real insecure about my future.
I just want to be free of all the stresses in my life...all of the worries, the insecurities, the moments where there is absolutely no hope anymore. There are nights where I don't get much sleep because of the constant worrying I do, and I really feel that it's becoming a huge problem, but I can't go and talk to somebody about it (professionally that is) because there's no time!
For some reason, I don't want tomorrow to come...not in a suicidal way, but in a way that I don't want to face reality. I don't want to do ANYTHING for a very long time.
Yes, this is a "woe is me" blog, but I don't want it to feel this way, I really don't...I don't like procrastinating and not getting things done and stressing out, and yet, I repeatedly do it nonstop!
What am I going to do?
Friday, April 9, 2010
Paper or plastic?
Oh that question is old...although a paper bag inside a plastic one would be better...
Nowadays I just use those cloth ones more often then not
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Friday, March 26, 2010
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