I'm a bit stressed out obviously (currently procrastinating, AGAIN, my English research paper, but I have an outline and my research is all done so all I have to do is write it now...), and I don't want to do anything right now.
So much is happening all at once, and I feel that I don't know how to stop it. Everything is due in a matter of a week and a day, and on top of that, I'm GRADUATING in a month. Isn't that nuts?
After I graduate, the question is what will I do when I get out into the real world? Where will I go? I mean, I'm literally almost done, and I don't have a job lined up, I don't know what I'm going to do for the summer, and I'm feeling real insecure about my future.
I just want to be free of all the stresses in my life...all of the worries, the insecurities, the moments where there is absolutely no hope anymore. There are nights where I don't get much sleep because of the constant worrying I do, and I really feel that it's becoming a huge problem, but I can't go and talk to somebody about it (professionally that is) because there's no time!
For some reason, I don't want tomorrow to come...not in a suicidal way, but in a way that I don't want to face reality. I don't want to do ANYTHING for a very long time.
Yes, this is a "woe is me" blog, but I don't want it to feel this way, I really don't...I don't like procrastinating and not getting things done and stressing out, and yet, I repeatedly do it nonstop!
What am I going to do?
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